Divya's Blog

so haven’t been able to write and nope it’s not been a case of writer’s block…it’s just been a case of extreme exhaustion and a general depression that has crept into me over the last few days….now depression is a pretty alien concept for people like me (loud, smiling, causing havoc and parties!) but that’s just it…it’s terribly hard to be positive all the time , to remain happy regardless…..you have a tough few days of work and when most people can blame their boss or their co-workers….i can’t really blame my boss–me! and the annoying thing about m.s. ( my illness) is that my downs or lows are heightened many times over…so though i may not be as depressed as i am feeling…my body just goes into ’super depressed mode’ and that’s it, then!!!! i know what it’s doing. i understand it….but am powerless to stop it!—- this is my excuse for my lack of communication on my blog. and i am sorry!

qasab sentencing done….death! and i feel nothing….i would’ve thought that the sentencing would make me feel–that we did good, that he deserves it….that justice has finally prevailed….. but there’s just a dull , gnawing ache….! killing him was something we needed to do…but even that might take another 18 months….or more! and that’s ridiculous! and by killing him….we don’t get back those many innocent lives he killed that day. by hanging him, we don’t erase the pain of so many families….terror is such a thoughtless, senseless belief. and even after it leaves ; the after shocks still leaves lives shattered and cities collapsed for years to come.

walk into a hotel…it’a a 10 minute security check and even then we’re not sure we’re safe enough…the fear lives on well after the attacks are over and that’s what’s terrible! and for ever qasab that we put to death some other uneducated, louts take his place in instilling terror in the world, intent on making us never feel safe!

and a few days after this sentencing happens his news will be relegated to page 10 or pg 21 and we will have a false sense of security and we will move back into our mundane lives with ease….we ask for change every day. we ask for the system to change. we ask for the police to change, the government to change—but do we change ourselves! do we stop bribing the cop that catches us breaking a traffic light? do we stop bribing politicians and stop asking for favours…do we start being the change we want to see?! make a change in your own life…even if it is only to make urself feel happy for an hour or so…a happier you..will help ur workplace with ur happier mood and that in turn will help ur job and ur day! if a small change we make can go such a long way….think of all the things we can do to make the changes we want to see…stop laying the blame on the media, our sports people, actors or politicians…let’s each be responsible for the future we’d like to live!

if 26/11 taught me one thing; it was that life was far too short to not live every moment IN THE MOMENT! rather than taking the fear and the anger away; i’m going to focus on making every second of mine count cos qasab or no qasab one day we all gotta go…don’t we?!

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